It’s almost like I’ll never see her again.. I don’t know what to do. So many things suck right now. Should I go to prom, even though she won’t be there? Should I ask her, or just let her enjoy what she can?.. Should I keep sending her daily messages, or should I give her some space?..
I hate this huge time difference…
If I’m completely honest, it scares me that she talks with Emilio every day for hours and some days I can hardly write a paragraph for her before I fall asleep… It also scares me that Emilio told her that he loves her… and I don’t know if she feels the same way.
Then, her mother gives me this INCREDIBLE offer to come and stay with them in Belgium for as long as I want and she’ll pay my air fare. She suggested I stay for a month. I absolutely love this idea. But of course, what happens? My dad comes home, finds out about it, and says I can’t go. i don’t have the heart to tell her we’ll probably never see each other again…
i’d give anything to hold her one more time…

She doesn’t want to come back….

I just want to hold her again…

My girlfriend and her sister just got deported…

Apparently attending school under her visa is a crime…

I don’t know what to do…

I don’t know if I’ll ever see her again…

I miss her so much…

I’ll miss views like this.

Back streets of Paris. I enjoyed my time there and I’m also quite happy to be home.

My parents were right…

Tried straight hair for a bit. Not really sure what I think of it.

I suppose I always kind of knew it with her, but it felt really good to hear her say that I’m her first choice. There isn’t going to be some guy who becomes single and ends my relationship this time. I don’t have to constantly compete with her exes. This time I found someone who just wants to be with me.

So, you know when you’re with someone really great… and that scares the shit out of you?… yea…